On my friend Karen's blog yesterday (http://www.liverpoollashes.co.uk/?m=1) -she's fab head on over she's lost 3 st and I'm immensely proud. I read in her post about the struggle of craving bad things and thinking to yourself if you have it nobody would know. So that's what today's post is about. That feeling. And the willpower that is needed to get over it.
If you've ever been over weight and 'dieted' or tried to change your lifestyle you'll know exactly what I'm talking about. If you haven't I'll give you a little run down.
Picture this. you're home alone feeling bored and every other emotion under the sun, everything/everyone on the television, social media etc, seems to be discussing food and you being the fat person you are at heart start thinking about all this food and the cravings begin to make you feel like if you don't eat the world could possibly end. You look in the cupboard/fridge/freezer and think to yourself 'nobody would know if I just had a bit of this, or a bit of that'. If you give in the next thing you know is you're nose deep in absolute gluttony. You the hide all evidence from family and partners and that's that. However afterward comes this sickly horrible feeling of regret and you have only yourself to blame; you're feeling all the emotions and telling yourself 'tomorrow is a new day'.
It's a battle that is never ending if you have had or do have a bad relationship with food. So what do you do when this phenomenon of nobody knowing rears its ugly head?
Firstly you need to remind yourself that this journey is for you. The only person you're cheating is you. You don't want to gain weight or remain that same girl who once ate a 24 multipack packet of crisps in a day, you want to be the best healthiest most fantastic version of you that you possibly can be. That end goal and vision is something I remind myself of daily, telling myself that I can no longer be that unhealthy girl with health problems.
One of the best solutions is, do not buy the food you crave in the first place, and never go to the supermarket when you're feeling emotional or hungry because you're more likely to give in to your demons. Also get yourself out of the house walk, run even skip, get some fresh air, readjust yourself and take control. Ensure that you're drinking plenty as well, whenever I'm dehydrated I get really hungry and this is because sometimes your body struggles to distinguish hunger and thirst, and if you're still hungry then choose something healthy, fruit, nuts, whole grains, yoghurts the healthy food world is your oyster.
Finally remember that yes. Nobody will no if you nose bag the whole fridge, nobody will know except you. The one person you are going through all this for and you're going to cheat her? Set her back? Make her feel worthless? You need to tell yourself 'no not today'.
I hope you enjoyed this post.
Hannah xx
